Loz (lozenger8) wrote,
Loz
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Everybody wants the same thing...

My credit union is the best thing ever. I applied for a loan on Monday and have it in my hot little hands now. Which means that massive shopping list of required essentials for going up North is actually going to get fulfilled.



I am fully aware I am selfish with massive entitlement issues and a hundred and one neuroses. I'm worried that, when it comes down to it, at my core, that's all I am. I'm shallow. I don't want to be, but I am. I like my modern comforts and my conveniences. I live for pleasure.

I know it's natural to feel fear at this stage. I know I felt fear before. I know I have little sense of proportion or balance. I know I can contradict myself within ten minutes. I know I didn't work as hard as I should have in my last teaching appointment, but still managed to get through.

I often feel like I know too much. I wish I could be blissfully oblivious of my flaws. I'm not.

I hope I discover I can be more than I know.

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