I am fully aware I am selfish with massive entitlement issues and a hundred and one neuroses. I'm worried that, when it comes down to it, at my core, that's all I am. I'm shallow. I don't want to be, but I am. I like my modern comforts and my conveniences. I live for pleasure.
I know it's natural to feel fear at this stage. I know I felt fear before. I know I have little sense of proportion or balance. I know I can contradict myself within ten minutes. I know I didn't work as hard as I should have in my last teaching appointment, but still managed to get through.
I often feel like I know too much. I wish I could be blissfully oblivious of my flaws. I'm not.
I hope I discover I can be more than I know.