Loz (lozenger8) wrote,

I will kiss you in four places...

I go back to live with my parents and Nick tomorrow. On the one hand, I'm pleased. I do love my family. On the other, I'm not. I rather liked living by myself - especially in a construct that meant I had no bills to pay.

I'm looking into volunteer work this week. I'm sick of feeling like my life has no purpose. I wish I could say it was an entirely altruistic venture, but I'll be honest and say that I also need to fulfill my 'mutual obligation agreement' to continue receiving money from the Government. That means a certain amount of hours per week of part time work, training and/or volunteering.

Since I seem incapable of landing part time work, and I don't actually need more training, volunteer work it is. But I want to do it. I should have started before - as soon as I saw TRT work wasn't coming thick and fast. As strange as it may seem, doing nothing productive over several months is actually quite soul destroying. I've been growing to steadily hate myself and I can't have that, I'm my own best friend, I don't like it when we feud. Of course, TRT work is likely to start coming now so I'll have to make that perfectly clear - and it will even out my 'mutual obligation', too.

2007 so far has been the year of inertia.

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