If you can't tell, I was not popular in High School. Most of the others in my grade either ignored me or disliked me, and at various stages in various grades, I didn't have any friends to hang out with whatsoever. At others I had friends, but they were so unlike me, it was more a matter of appearances.
So I've been wondering, I don't really know why, just how different my life would be, just how different I would be, if instead of ignoring or disliking me, my fellow students had noticed and liked me. Or noticed and disliked, as often happens too. Thing is, I didn't like the popular kids, which is probably something they sensed, and became one of the reasons they didn't like me.
I don't think I'd be half the person I am today if I'd been popular in High School. I think my shallow tendencies would have completely taken over, and my ditzy elements have become more prominent. I'd have been sheep like and tried to be someone I'm not.
Why the hell am I even thinking about High School anyway? That was 3 and a half years ago... since I left! Wow, time flies.
