Loz (lozenger8) wrote,
Loz
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Reawaken and keep ourselves awake...

I started watching "Recovery" with David Tennant and Sarah Parish, but I think I'm going to have stop for a little while because it's reminding me of when my Dad first had his stroke and it's too confronting.

I find myself questioning how much of "Not By Mechanical Aid" was me coming to terms with Dad; his personality change and his will to survive. Putting the scenario onto Sam - onto a fictional character I love instead of a real person - it gave me the distancing mechanism I needed by which to explore those issues. I hadn't let myself accept that before.

I think that's why I find myself rereading it so often. I would tell myself it was to see Sam as I really saw him, the essence of the character. But it's not that at all. It's because it is so deeply personal. A reflection and a recount I couldn't bring myself to write biographically. The thoughts I don't generally let myself have because it's much easier to act like nothing ever happened.
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