My name is Loz. That's short for Laura. I prefer not to go by any other name. I think most people figure out early on that my name is Loz, since it's part of my username, my Journal is called Living Loz, and I have Loz name icons. I am twenty-two years old, but it's taken me a while to get to a point where I can comfortably admit that. I've always had issues with my age. When I was seventeen, I wasn't old enough. When I was twenty, I was too old. Right about now, I'm comfortable, so it's a shame it changes again in December.
I was born in London, moved to East Yorkshire when I was three, and then again to Adelaide, South Australia just before I turned ten. I very much identify myself as English first, Australian second, partly because the only person in my immediate family (including grandparents) who was born in Australia is my mother. I love Australia, especially Adelaide. I don't particularly want to go and spend the rest of my time in England, although it would make buying British DVDs easier.
I never did all that well during Primary School or High School. At one point I was considered 'gifted' literacy-wise, but they stopped offering the program for students with advanced skills in this area to focus on those mathematically based. I admit I was a little bitter. I never tried very hard in school, I wasn't motivated to excell in anything. It was quite a surprise when I got into University.
Apart from University and my teaching practicums, I've never had any other work. I was government supported throughout my education, which means two minute noodles are my friends. I do housework for my Nana on the weekend (and have done since the age of 12), but that's about it. The workforce is this looming creature to me, full of fear and terror. I live with my parents and my younger brother Nick. I also have an older brother called Jeremy. I love my family and I like to think that occasionally they love me. They've been very supportive, if not always in the manner in which I would hope.
I've been going to University for the past six years. My first degree was a three year Bachelor of Arts, a double major in English and Screen Studies. Screen Studies is predominantly film and television studies, but it also encompasses multimedia. I went on to do a year of Honours in English, which at Flinders is considered a separate degree. My 13,000+ word thesis was on Homosexual Themes in the Victorian Gothic. I actually have it online because I'm crazy like that. I am not especially compelled to go and do Masters or a PhD, not yet anyway.
My second degree has been a two year Bachelor of Education (Graduate Entry), which I am just completing now. To be honest, the theory behind education doesn't exactly thrill me. More than once I have said I miss doing my BA, which is completely ridiculous, because I used to complain bitterly about doing it at the time. I love teaching, however. I'm training to be a primary school teacher of 5-13 year olds, with no set specialisation, although in the future I'd love to teach media studies. I've had three teaching practicums, all in wildly different schools, for a total of 18 weeks.
I very much see myself as an academic, but I never used to. I am, in many ways, a pseudo-intellectual - with emphasis on the pseudo. I like analysing and critiquing things. I even get an odd buzz from writing essays, which is why I've been known to do so in my spare time - about characters, of course, nothing overly important. I do engage in a great deal of academic wankery from time to time, over-analysing and posing questions that don't need to be posed. For the most part, I'm inquisitive as opposed to argumentative. I enjoy seeing other people's points of view and won't necessarily argue a case for my own. This isn't true all the time. I can be relatively ditzy and I've been known to say and do pretty silly things. I am a great big klutz, often falling over items and myself.
I believe I am heterosexual but I'm very open minded when it comes to sexuality. Still, I can be man-mad (and to a degree, man-made) and I fangirl relentlessly for all sorts of wonderful actors. There's around a hundred for which I often find myself saying "oh, he's my favourite actor!" About twenty of them probably actually are. On the physical manifestation of manhood there is currently no chance in hell, unfortunately. A girl can dream, though. Oh yes, a girl can dream. I have several long-reaching complexes on the issue and try not to think about it.
I am polyfannish. I got into the whole fandom thing through Harry Potter - specifically in relation to CoSForums, on which I was a member of staff for a short period of time. I rarely go there anymore and in fact, try to avoid HP fandom in general, but I am close with quite a few of the friends I made there because they are wonderful. I used to spend an inordinate amount of time on CoS and learnt more about social politics there than I think I ever will in my life to come. My primary fandoms at the moment are due South, tangential due South, Kids in the Hall, Futurama and the one that is eating my brain - Life on Mars. I mostly tend to love my fandoms long after I stop obsessing over them, which is why I have a large collection of Buffy, Angel and the Horatio Hornblower telefilms. Battlestar Galactica may or may not be returning to the fold come October.
Despite my fangirling, I'm really not a girly-girl. I don't wear make-up. I don't wear skirts. I don't love shoes or shopping or nail polish. My only interest in fashion is Go Fug Yourself and I'm almost positive that this is just appealing to my darker sense of humour. I like cars and technology and things exploding. I really do think I'm geeky. I'm pretty good at teaching myself how to perform technical maneuvres and I have a keen interest in other geeky things. I like geeky people. My science and mathematics knowledge isn't very solid, but I appreciate items in those areas which I do know.
I like to think of myself as a writer, but I know I have a long way to go. I mostly write fan fiction, although I do write original pieces every now and then. I am planning on participating in NaNoWriMo with an original work. I enjoy writing fan fiction. I'm not overly celebrated or overly shunned. I write slash in due South and Life on Mars. I avoid porn because sex makes me highly uncomfortable (complexes!) I only have One True Pairing ideals in a couple of my interests, and I'm not rabid about them.
I don't actually read a whole lot of other people's fan fiction, generally finding that brilliant writing tends to depress me and lose confidence in my own abilities (and I don't like pain.) This is also why I don't read too many novels, which is a habit I am planning on fixing once I'm not obligated to read educational texts to write essays on. I used to read all of the time. In my first year of High school, it was all I ever did. These days I prefer to have a quick buzz of entertainment from my fandoms or from shows like Scrubs, Whose Line is it Anyway? or Black Books, because my concentration span is one attuned to multi-tasking.
I love music and I am taking voice lessons. I've always sung, but now I am getting training. I am polygenre when it comes to music. I like pretty much everything, or at least specific examples of everything. My favourite bands are Queen and Barenaked Ladies. I am always open to music suggestions. I love a lot of Canadian music and this ties into me wanting to visit Canada one day.
I'm a depressive person who is awfully good at cheering herself up. If I get thinking about things (and I am an overthinker), I do tend to become dark, angry and morbid. But along with my 'multi-tasking' concentration span, and my ability to look at the light as well as the shade, these phases don't last very long. Most of the time I am cheerful and I try to be open and friendly to everyone, but offline I am exceedingly shy and it takes an effort for me to speak to strangers. I'm certainly a lot more confident now than I was a couple of years ago, though.
Now. Is there anything else? I don't think so. That's pretty much everything you never wanted to know about me. If you do have any questions, though, feel free to ask.