November 9th, 2006

Loz Cola

Computer = Death...

It appears I've lost everything on my primary drive.

All my essays, many of my pictures, lots of miscellaneous odds and ends.

And of course, everything I've written that hasn't been posted somewhere on the webosphere. So. That's over 4000 words of NaNo. And 3500 words of my Life on Mars fic. Not to mention my vecchiofest fic. Uhh... fuck. It's my fault for not backing it up - especially when something similar happened 3 weeks ago. I did back my documents up then, onto my Dad's drive, and I should have kept them there - but I thought my computer had overcome its fear of rejection. That back-up might not have helped me with NaNo and my latest stuff, but I wouldn't have lost all my old stuff too. Of course, if I had used my NaNo-J the way it was supposed to be used, I'd be fine novel-wise.

I give myself permission to fail where NaNo is concerned. There is no way I could rewrite those 4000+ words and keep ploughing on. I just don't have that in me. I don't know about the Life on Mars fic. Part of what made me want to write it was some of the dialogue which felt right, but I don't know if I can recreate it. I will probably have to rewrite my vecchiofest fic.

So much of what was on that hard drive was me. And it's gone. I feel like I've lost part of myself.