Loz (lozenger8) wrote,

In which I wax lyrical about Sam/Gene... again...

WATCH THIS, a video that fern_tree very kindly grabbed for LoM fandom's perusal. Okay. Seen it? Good. Glorious, right? John + Phil = WIN. It gave me ALL THE FEELINGS this morning. Every one of them.

So. I am a hypocrite. I am continually saying that I miss gen, other slash pairings and het fics in Life on Mars fandom. I say it at least once every three months. "Why isn't there more variety?" I lament.

And then I write a metric fuckton of Sam/Gene slash.

For this year's lom_bigbang I had the option of two fully formed ideas --- a romantic comedy Sam/Gene Teacher!AU, and an Inception fusion het/casefic with Annie and Alex as my main characters. You all know what I ended up writing. Hint: it wasn't the rarer beast of the two.

The AU didn't end up being any easier than LoMCeption would have been, though at the time I thought it would. The romantic comedy aspect absolutely did my head in. The balance between romance and keeping the characters in character was a bit nightmarish. For a good long while there I hated everything I had written. But there was a comfort aspect to choosing that pairing, that plotline, that I cannot deny.

I don't find writing Sam/Gene comforting because it's simple. I've never found it to be. I once got myself into epic trouble by trying to suggest that if you find writing S/G simple, you're doing it wrong. I was joking, but I do sort of feel this way, a little bit? Yes, even after all these years. What can I say? I'm a pain in the neck. I find S/G comforting precisely because it's challenging in all of these crunchy ways that fascinate me.

I say I want variety in the fic/art/vid portion of LoM fandom, and I do, it isn't a lie --- but I love, love, love writing Sam/Gene. It makes my heart sing. They are it for me, truly. I ship them an ungodly amount. Every time I think of them, I swear my eyes turn into gigantic heart shapes.

I love them because there is so much conflict there, and it's not only of the "does he like me?"/"we can never be, because it's GAY" variety (though it is those too, of course.) It's of the, "I think totally differently to you", "you should have a degree in being wrong ALL the time", "I can never tell you the truth, because you will think I am mad", "darling DI, I suspect you're mad", "you are not the boss of me", "yes I bloody well am" varieties and more.

I love them because there's so much camaraderie. Any time I think of their amusing/amused exchanges, I am gleeful, and having them chat away to each other in my mind? Always fantastic. Sometimes distracting, admittedly, but, yes, always wonderful. Not to mention, all the ways in which they trust and support one another despite the odds are perfection.

I love how they grow to love each other, and I believe in that love. You honestly cannot convince me that they don't love each other by the end of the show. It can't be done. They do. And, yes, in the show it is the love of friendship, we never do see them become romantically or sexually involved with each other, but there is nothing mere about that love. Whenever I see people try to reduce Sam & Gene to "mere friends", I do get a bit rantastic.

How can I criticise the rest of LoM fandom if I am always going to want to write Sam/Gene before anything else? How can I blame anyone for loving these two like I do?

So. Yes. I am a hypocrite. It's not that I don't adore everything else, I do, I do! I appreciate gen and het and other slash pairings crazy amounts. I am mad for Annie and interested in writing more LoM/A2A fic so that I can explore that plotline and play with Alex and Shaz. Minor character study and horror gen and non-pairing/other pairing casefic, they are all golden.

But my passion, my heart, it lies with Sam & Gene. I cannot tell a lie. I love them, you guys. It's all that can be said.

In conclusion: ♥ Sam/Gene OTP 4 eva and eva ♥.

Tags: fandom, life on mars, this may be a sickness

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